“I was holding his wrists, but it wasn’t his flesh and bone I was feeling. It was the sick slippery guilt inside the meat shell.”
I heard once that long-term isolation can have an effect most wicked on even the most competent of minds and seasoned mountain men, and also that guilt on its own is capable of ruin. By the time I met Henry the post boy in Crispin’s Peak while I was in for supplies with my pa, I’d experienced both, and my mind was eaten with rot.
I believe a part of myself may have died last winter.
“Nobody looks like what they really are on the inside. You don’t. I don’t. People are much more complicated than that. It’s true of everybody.’
I said, ‘Are you a monster? Like Ursula Monkton?’
Lettie threw a pebble into the pond. ‘I don’t think so,’ she said. ‘Monsters come in all shapes and sizes, Some of them are things people are scared of. Some of them are things that look like things people used to be scared of a long time ago. Sometimes monsters are things people should be scared of, but they aren’t.’
I said, ‘People should be scared of Ursula Monkton.’
‘P’raps. What do you think Ursula Monkton is scared of?’
‘Dunno. Why do you think she’s scared of anything? She’s a grown-up, isn’t she? Grown-ups and monsters aren’t scared of things.’
Oh, monsters are scared,” said Lettie. “That’s why they’re monsters. And as for grown-ups…’ She stopped talking, rubbed her freckled nose with a finger. Then, ‘I’m going to tell you something important. Grown-ups don’t look like grown-ups on the inside either. Outside, they’re big and thoughtless and they always know what they’re doing. Inside, they look just like they always have. Like they did when they were your age. Truth is, there aren’t any grown-ups. Not one, in the whole wide world.”
GUYS. We *finally* made it to my favorite month of the entire year. I savor all 31 days and they always go by so fast (especially now that my Bean is here…he was born in October. And he is going to be four in 3 short weeks. FOUR. Where did the time go??)
Last year, I reviewed five spooky reads, one each week. This year, my brilliant sister came up with the movie/book comparison idea and I think it’s great! With the exception of this week, each week we will choose a movie and pair it with a book that we think is reminiscent of that movie. For instance, next week I am reviewing Frost by Marianna Baer and think it’s a good one to pick up if you enjoyed The Shining. I realize The Shining is also a book, but as Stephen King tells it, Kubrick didn’t do a great job adapting his book for screen. And I will agree, The Shining isn’t my favorite movie. It took my husband four tries to get me to sit and stay awake for the entire thing and I came out on the other side going “meh.” However, Frost was pretty good and there are similarities between the movie and the book that I will address next week. This week, I am going very tongue in cheek and saying…
If you liked the movie Coraline, you should check out the book….
Let’s talk about that.